In a mood

today
that is exactly how i am
in a mood

wanted to talk to you so badly, yesterday and today felt just like chating, telling you how i was and how i felt, telling you about the photo shoot and the film in the cinema but ...
life ain't always exactly how we want it, and things don't always turn out exaclty how you wish them to, especially when it is not just my life in the mix...
so i felt like i was worring you with my messages
second one i sent and i knew it was a mistake right then
and this is how i feel now

i hate this
i run after you
i always do this
and then when i don't get all the attention i want (which is always to much ...) i get sad and feel exaclty like this
in a mood
that is how i feel

i need to get away from not you or this place but me
the part of me that sticks to you
hurts still so much after all this time

5 years
come on
that is enough
at least you moved on about one or two years ago
now me
i wonder
don't matter
not important
just need to get out of this mood.
the way i feel today i honestly just want to leave and not say goodbye cause i can't face you... you will never understand
understand what you mean to me

after all this time
it has been to long
and i can't carry on loving you...

Dance & Love

i'm ridiculous.

will i always stay the same way
with these strange emotions inside me?
i ask myself if i am ever going to grow up?
start thinking my age, loose these fantasied ideas of the world
and this person i would like to be.

i guess i'm wierd...
in so many ways.

just came home from watching step up. incridlbe.
i wanna be a dancer in my next life
the power
the strenth
the passion

watching a boy and a girl dance together, the flow and the vibe is just so right
seams to me as good as sweet love in bed
made during the night or on the dance floor
just perfect
where is my chance ?
i miss that feeling
feeling love gives us
that natural high...

no matter how small i am i feel so big around him and at the same time no matter how big and ugly i feel i seem so small and protected under his arm... i miss this... so damn much.

the looking in one's eyes and knowing that everything is right for what is about to happen is so perfect that it can't be denied.

i miss this...

looking back i only had one or two
and now seem to be wishing upon that perfect night out
at the club
me leeting myself go like i usually do
the perfect songs
my perfect moves
the perfect connection
the perfect play

by now i should think my age
by now i should have stop dreaming
about perfect
relationships
when i already know for a fact


i'm nothing near perfect.

Come close to Me

Common - lyrics

"Come Close"
(feat. Mary J. Blige)

[Intro]
[Common:] It's just a fly love song, what
[Mary J:] Mmmmm
[Common:] It's just a fly love song, what

[Verse: Common]
Are we living in a dream world?
Are your eyes still green girl?
I know your sick and tired of arguing
But you can't keep it bottled in
Jealousy, we got to swallow it
Your heart and mind baby follow it
Smile, happiness you could model it
And when you feel opposite
I just want you to know
Your whole being is beautiful
Im going to do the best I can do
Cause i'm the best when i'm with you

[Chorus: Mary J. Blige]
Come close to me baby
Let your love hold you
I know this world is crazy
What's it without you

[Verse: Common]
Put down your bags love
I know in the past love
Has been sort of hard in you
But I see the God in you
I just want to nurture it
Though this love may hurt a bit
We dealing wit this water love
You even give my daughter love
I want to build a tribe wit you
Protect and provide for you
Truth is I can't hide from you
The pimp in me
May have to die with you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I know what you're thinking, you're on my mind
You're right, you're right, you're right
You promise so fast you just might take flight
Hope your not tired, tonight, tonight

[Verse: Common]
You help me to discovery me
I just want you to put trust in me
I kind of laugh when you cuss at me
The aftermath is you touching me
It's destiny to we connected girl
You and i we can affect the world
I'm tired of the fast lane
I want you to have my last name

[Chorus]

[Bridge (2x)]

everything changes

time goes by
we met how many years ago?
can't remember, i mean don't want to think about it... met in the 10 th year lets say... long ago
and after all this time
i still don't know how to treat you, i still don't understand your attitudes and expressions...

you hurt me
but you'll never understand.

it's true i am wierd but maybe it's because the fact you've moved on and i've not still messes me up inside. I still have you all around me and your present still are part of my life just as strong as is your memory...

and with you?
what am i? nothing.

i want to be able to look at you in the same way you look at me.

wish you understoud.
cause you really hurt me.


time goes by.

i just want to be able to treat you as a friend, be cool around you and have fun with you like I always do. one day...
as time goes by.

Home Sweet Home

nothing like being with family and best friends.

I love huging & I'm not afraid to use it

so beware :p

Special day

Happy B day Bunny

i'm sure you had a perfect birthday probable still having it lol
a little sad i couldn't be there but probably would not even be by your side so doesnt matter i guess,

perfect though,
21 and a beautifull full moon

even I could hardly ask for me...


at least i had the fashion show today
so my mind has been busy ...

still though
would really liked to have been part of your life then till now and seen you became that age i've always fantasied you in...

hope you have a great year ahaid of you.