Thursday, April 30, 2009

Story time...

I lay there. Beside him.

As she lay there, inside… I trembled. This girl was something special, this girl made me nervous. All I could think about was the softness of her skin, the brightness of her lips. I really wanted to kiss her.

He was staring at me and I was quite confused. He looked uncertain in his actions. All I could do was smile and so I did. I felt his warm hands on my legs and as he moved up… I trembled inside.

(They had chemistry undeniable to anyone, even though, they hardly knew much about one another. Together, on that fresh late afternoon they lay beside each other on the vividly green grass. Sharing small talk all they desired was to embrace. He knew she was different to all the other girls that had pursued him. He wanted her more than she wanted him. She needed him more than he knew. She worried he was just like every other guy that had chased after her.)

-> Hands, warm hands felt the soft and nourished skin of her legs, his little finger occasionally drifting closer to her centre. Small trembles occurring by her as those fingers drifted. The anticipation, the desired fear… unknowing if he was going to move back down or stay closer. Their bodies close together as their chests touched. She could feel his breath on her face; he could see her pleasure in those big sparkling eyes. She had not been touched this way before. He had never wanted someone this much. They hugged, it was a safe place together, and there was no more need for chitchat. His firm hand moved slowly and determined to her arm. Hers stayed firmly across him, holding tight. <-

When his lips touched the skin on my neck I physically felt my eyes roll back. I wanted him more than I had ever wanted anything.

After I kissed her neck and her eyes rolled back, when she took my hand towards her thighs I knew this girl was something else. I needed her more than she could ever know.

Yin/Yang

Run down.
It seems that with every high comes a low, annoying sayings tell us: the higher we go the harder we fall? Or something like this?
Negative and Positive as my body confuses my brain asking for sleep, chocolate, more and more food, cheese, and a lot of more sleep. Strange mood, strange feeling inside.
Run down.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Not that big a deal...

Even so...

Dissertation?

Done.


Already thought of things I should have put in and I did not.
Already thought of stuff I could have improved on.
Already disappointed with myself.

Sorry,

I forgot to mention the people that helped me; for this reason I say: Thank you all that supported me, that read through my work (translated it patiently) and just helped me along.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

On my own

I wish it got easier…

Looking outside the window miles above the ground, I see the world before me. Breathless as I steer towards the lights, that slowly became brighter and brighter. I realise how significant it is that I am able to see this site, how much I have developed inside and expanded. But, a tear falls down my check as I am sitting all alone. There is something mystical about sharing and no matter how hard I try to fight inside me, I am grown up and independent, I feel all alone.

I wish it got easier…

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Strong words...

John Mayer

I don't Trust Myself with Loving you

"No I'm not the man I used to be lately
See you met me at an interesting time
And if my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

I will beg my way into your garden
And then I'll break my way out when it rains
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

Who do you love?
Girl I see through, through your love
Who do you love, me or the thought of me?
Me or the thought of me?

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with loving you
I don't trust myself with loving you
..."