Something is... but what?

So question?

What is bothering me?

These past days things have been slow or at least in my mind they have. It is silly because last week seems to far away, time seems to be passing so slowly and still at the same time there is so little time until I go back.
Maybe it is this, going back, maybe that is bothering me.
Also something else but I can’t exactly put my finger on it.
All in all my monthly visit is on its way and although I hate to admit it, it does help to make me feel a little less confident and a little more down.
Stupid stuff;

I know it isn’t just that because my hormones aren’t the best of me, but I still can’t exactly say what is bothering me.

Just hope it goes away.

Tattoo

For many years I had the wish
the vision has never been exact
the idea has always been present

the moon - one man of my life - Darling because you have always shined in the dark
the angel - the women i look up to - Cassie because you have always been the best person I have known

although it might not exactly be the perfect image hiding inside me it serves
and already i love it more than the day before

Hard to deal with

There are many things people hate to talk about
many things we try our best to ignore

I am so tired of hearing you don't look after yourself...
why refuse help...
Cassie please take care...