Love and Romance

in understanding society this is what we are looking at
love and romance

does any of this exist or is it just society that makes it real
society is us
right
so we make it real
or is that not exactly
like that?

don't know
can't remember... can't remember how it feels to BE loved
only loving
...
and hurting

all the good is so far, it's sad i know i've felt it cause there is a very vage feeling
a memory i can't reach anymore
not these past days especialy.

Missing everyone so much lately.
Watched Elisabethtown tonight
ohhh my God how i miss that
see i know i've had it...

of course you've been on my mind but strangely
although i feel like speaking to you, sending you a message to know how u are, something
i don't do it
see
who am i to you
at least i would like to think
a sort of friend
so if you don't speak to me it's cause or you really can't or you don't want to

so it's up to you

i'll be back soon and i'm really forward to seeing everyone again
miss so much
i guess family
is really
family and close friends
are really
really
special

don't actually want to analyse and find out if love and romance
exists
just want to carry on in this
fantasy
these dreams
i dream
everynight.

the perfect bad boy who will once again love me for who i really am.