Crapy news as I end a day that seemed to be so enjoyable… crapy is not even a word strong enough to describe how I feel. There are things we can not control, emotions and feelings being one of them. I am not allowed to be angry nor upset and I should try and imagine how “X” feels when delivering such news. Sometimes I am just not enough of a big girl. I guess, nor upset or angry would be the right descriptions for what I feel right now… sad, confused and somewhat unsurprised! Wish things could be simpler… it seems my life has been twisting and turning and I feel I am getting nowhere.