Gratitude, Love, Happiness.

I have completed my second year of university!

The day it ended was such as relief with my final exam, the hardest one and probably the one I really wanted to just get over with. It is all over and done now as I few days have passed and I have begun working. I have to make some money in order to spend some money isn’t it? That is the way the world works.

I don’t know if what is ahead is going to be simple, easy or even as enjoyable as I wish it to be. I had a slight misunderstanding already with him and even though I have tried not to think about it, it lingers in the back of my mind. So hard to know what he wants from me, what is the correct way to talk to him or behave and I know it is going to be so strange this time round when I go back. If endings were simple I guess they would not be such a strange issue for me. Sometimes in my naïve mind I just wish I could make him understand how hard it is for me so that then he could have an idea about the situation. If only guys could also speak there mind, be honest and just verbalise thoughts. I don’t believe girls have yet learned to read minds, unfortunately.

In order to protect myself I have to constantly remind myself that love has gone and it is always me that ends up hurting. I don’t really want this to carry on and after so many years of this cycle I really want something better for myself.

Easier said than done I know.

Anyway this has passed and I would probably guess it has not even crossed his mind a second time.

I have an interesting month ahead me filled with hard tiring work and hopefully close to the end an amazing experience at the summer camp I will be doing. Looking forward to my weekends also!

I don’t believe I have said these out loud or written it enough times really but I so much want to be given the chance to learn more about this world and said that I state my current goals to be:

Achieving happiness everyday, being able to remember how grateful I am for all the people I have in my life and all the opportunities I have been provided with. I love with passion so I want to be loved back with passion.

Happiness, Love, Gratitude.