disapointed in me
I shouldn’t really be writing today, because the emotions are so strongly negative that by writing them down I can only make them even more concrete.
For all the possible guys out there, let me say something and see if I can explain myself properly. When you ask a girl how she is do not always expect a straightforward answer. Yes it is strange and confusing that sometimes we are not able to explicitly say what is on your mind or how we feel. But even is this seems really complex it is simple. If you care, ask again, ask what’s wrong. Nearly always, girls want to talk, they want to let something out, sometimes it takes a while but unless there is a definite “I don’t want to talk about it” don’t just figure because she changed the subject that there is no need or that she doesn't want to talk about it.
If this is not clear, let me see if I can make it clearer.
How you? He asks after she has already gone to speak to him.
Not to well, but anyway not going to bother you with stupid stuff. She replies.
How come? First attempt, and already sweet to have shown concern.
And how you doing, aren’t you supposed to be going out tonight? Trying to change the subject but still has already hinted that she doesn’t want to be a pain.
I will be going but later on. Now I am here. Right here is where it would be appropriate if there is some form of interest, concern, anything to ask what has happened or what is wrong.
How came plans changed? She asks because she actually wants to know and is interested.
Because bla bla bla… already forgotten what has been said behind and probably relieved there was no long let out.
Oh I see. And hoping maybe more demonstration of it being alright to annoy him.
Pause…
Pause… not really interested or just plain gone to carry on with his own things.
Hum trying to make small talk… she attempts but receives no answer.
Still,
Wonder why I still hope, wonder why I still confuse you with someone who cared.
Wish I had someone to hold me while I cry. Although I’ve been trying my best to hide.
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