Feel like talking.
My parents are watching the game and my brother is somewhere in the middle of watching it and playing on the pc, of course he probably is also on the msn.

Today I have done nothing at all. I was supposed to study and I did my best to do anything but that. Watched this programe I've heard a lot about. "The Real Life". Good. Though like in every stupid thing i watch, film or whatever... This girl and boy broken up. The guy is trying to get on with his life and is trying his best to get it on with some other girl. The girl just seems still stuck. can't exactly do the same thing. And shit, sentences are said and my mind wonders.

There are times that I am stronger and there are days that are harder.
Still I can't start thinking about you and I, about how things would be if we were together. I can't.
We drifted apart after the second "chance" we gave ourselves and I was hurt again... although he had left it clear that we weren't together, there was no us, I had hope, I believed in his love all over again, and for what?
Nothing, cause yes I made again mistakes, pushed, pulled... fucked up. Still if the love was strong enough that would not have been enough to decide we don't work. But you did. You told me that.
I can't.
I can't and I will not fall again.

But today it is not a easy day. My mind is wondering what you doing. My mind is wondering when we gonna see each other, talk again. My mind is wondering how it would be for me to hold you again, kiss you again. My mind is wondering ... But I can't.


Got to go and study. So few days to the exames.

Listening to this old cd, cd I love with so many songs that touch me.
Anyway. Guess I got somethings out. Just going to listen to two more songs and then I have to go and study.

7 Seconds -

-j'assume les raisons qui nous poussent de changer tout,
I assume the resons that lead us to change everything,

-J'aimerais qu'on oublie leur couleur pour qu'ils esperent
I wish we could forget their color so they can hope

-Beaucoup de sentiments de races qui font qu'ils desesperent
lots of feelings for races which make them lose hope (despair)

-Je veux les portes grandements ouvertes,
I want the doors wide open,

-Des amis pour parler de leur peine, de leur joie
For our friends to talk about their life penalty, about their joy


-Pour qu'ils leur filent des infos qui ne divisent pas
so they can give'em infos that do not divide(scatter)

-Changer
change

And when a child is born into this world
It has no concept
Of the tone the skin is living in
And there's a million voices
And there's a million voices
To tell you what she should be thinking
So you better sober up for just a second
7 seconds away

_______

Stay.

you say i only hear what i want to.
you say i talk so all the time so.
...
you try to tell me that i'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
...
you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.
and you say, "stay."


sometimes I really do wish you said ... stay.