good days
Time has been passing along and I have been smiling, watching it go has been interesting. I have had such an amazing few days that my soul feels so alive. I know things aren't always like this and life is made of ups and downs, little bit of me is still so ansious because there is still much to happen.
Before I made my back to Portugal I finished my term time on a good note with the summer camp. It was so nice to be a young little girl. I got voted the most bubbly because it is so easy to smile to play to laugh and dance when you put your frame of mind into it. I so enjoyed the experience that I can definitly say I am grateful with much strength.
Followed by two days of excelente company with my best friends there. It was so nice to see that no matter where you go there are people that grow close to you, that want to see you well and care for you. I love them all to pieces!
Arrived to a sunny warm amazing country! Enjoyed my first days with a smile on my face. Had a few bits of conversation that remind me there is a lot of growing that will need to take place here, this time. I really want to try my best and be an adult and when I see him and his girlfriend all I aks for is to have the inner power to not break down right there and then. This time I have changed and no more stupid baby atitudes. I have grown and I must show it. I am not going to deny the effect it has on me, the closing of so many hopes, years of wishing. The end of so much loving needs to take place and this is maybe my first step, accepting.
Much still to came and many more laughes I believe are in store!
It is moments like this one, in front on my computer in my clean and tidy, beautiful room. Music playing as loud as I want it. Moments like this make me so happy and grateful.
Before I made my back to Portugal I finished my term time on a good note with the summer camp. It was so nice to be a young little girl. I got voted the most bubbly because it is so easy to smile to play to laugh and dance when you put your frame of mind into it. I so enjoyed the experience that I can definitly say I am grateful with much strength.
Followed by two days of excelente company with my best friends there. It was so nice to see that no matter where you go there are people that grow close to you, that want to see you well and care for you. I love them all to pieces!
Arrived to a sunny warm amazing country! Enjoyed my first days with a smile on my face. Had a few bits of conversation that remind me there is a lot of growing that will need to take place here, this time. I really want to try my best and be an adult and when I see him and his girlfriend all I aks for is to have the inner power to not break down right there and then. This time I have changed and no more stupid baby atitudes. I have grown and I must show it. I am not going to deny the effect it has on me, the closing of so many hopes, years of wishing. The end of so much loving needs to take place and this is maybe my first step, accepting.
Much still to came and many more laughes I believe are in store!
It is moments like this one, in front on my computer in my clean and tidy, beautiful room. Music playing as loud as I want it. Moments like this make me so happy and grateful.
My wish this summer is that the heartache be minimized with the love and joy my family and friends bring to me.
posted by Leila at 4:16 AM
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