home?

I feel the need to ask what is wrong with me? Or is it that tehre is something wrong about me?

I don't understand, I really don't and I don't care if I don't actually have a load of guys trying to impress me... I just wonder for how much longer am I going to have to feel so alone?
For how much longer will I have to feel like I can't even recall how it is to be loved?

there can only be something strange about me but once again, in the middle of a huge place with plenty of looking around, both my two friends got hit on at least twice.... wonder if there was an even second look taken in my direction. I don't need stupid guys trying to get some I just can't figure out why there seems to be no interest what so ever.

Maybe I should cut the crap... yeah maybe I should I guess it all begins to build up around the sense of being lost. Is there ever going to be a place where I feel at Home? At ease?
Will there ever be the time that people came after me instead of me feeling like it needs to be after everyone else?

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Self esteem linked to the wish of being wanted.